As Big Brother is getting older…I’m seeing more of us in him. He gets his energy, compassion, and enthusiasm for life from his Daddy. He gets a lot of things from me, though, but many of them are things I wish he wouldn’t have gotten from me.
For example, he overreacts (totally me) and is kind of a baby when he gets hurt (this sounds all too familiar). And he has been saying “dang it” lately…something I’m sorry to say, he’s heard come from my mouth a time or two.
Sometimes I watch him and think I’m looking in a mirror (he doesn’t really look like me, but he has A LOT of similar personality traits). I often get discouraged when I see those negative behaviors I know he got from me. Why can’t I be a good example? Why do I lose my patience? Why do I sometimes shout? Why do I say “dang it” when I’ve told myself a hundred times not to say that in front of the kids!
That’s when I’m thankful for grace…and forgiveness. Both for myself and for my children.
Having an imperfect parent is actually a blessing to my children. They get to see, from the start, that we all need God’s grace…especially their crazy Mama. Just like children need to be able to fail gracefully, they also need to see me fail gracefully as well.
So, even though I will strive all of my days to be the best example for my children as possible…sometimes this includes admitting I’m wrong, asking for forgiveness, and seeking the pure and ever-flowing grace of God!