Sometimes I’m afraid to feel too much. I’m afraid my feelings will lead to drastic changes in my life that take me out of my comfort zone. For this reason, I have decided not to watch The Passion of the Christ since it first came out. It made me feel too much…it made me uncomfortable. I didn’t like breaking down in tears for weeks during communion because I couldn’t get the images of his crucifixion out of my mind.
But God doesn’t call us to be comfortable. He calls us to live a life according to His will, not ours. So sometimes things that make us feel are really Him tugging at our hearts to get out of ourselves and our comfort zones. Perhaps He’s trying to make us new again.
If you’ve never heard the song New Again by Brad Paisley and Sarah Evans…it’s amazing. The clips from The Passion of the Christ on this music video truly make Mary’s grief come to life. Thinking about the death of Jesus from the perspective of a mother is heart-wrenching and gives just a taste of how God must have felt.
I’ll forewarn you…this song is long, it’s hard to watch and it will make you feel. But then again, maybe that’s a good thing…