I haven’t been able to fall asleep easily lately and my mind tends to wander in those moments. I was pondering some of my “bad habits” and seeing them through the eyes of my children.
Two things that my kids see me do nearly every day is (1) Go to Sonic for a Dr. Pepper (yes, I know…it is a major problem not to mention a frivolous expense) and (2) frequently work on the computer.
I’m really afraid that these two things are going to be two of the most prevalent memories my children have of me when they grow up. This is not the way I want to be remembered!
This got me to thinking about how I would like our kids to remember about me. I would really like to be remembered for reading my Bible each and every day and frequently serving others. These are two things that I am really bad at. I plan to read my Bible each day, but I have not been good at consistently making it a top priority. I might as well lay it all out on the line and tell you that I really struggle with selfishness. I have to make a conscious effort to think and do something for someone else. I’m pitiful, I know. I don’t blame you if you don’t want to read my website anymore.
But to be remembered in this positive way, I’m going to have to make some changes. I’m going to try to reduce the frequency of my Sonic trips and limit the amount of time I spend on the computer when the kids are awake. I’m also going to attempt to do my Bible study while the boys are awake, that way they are seeing me read my Bible. I might be a little distracted by frequent interruptions of toys being stolen from one kid or the other, but then again…when am I not distracted? At least I will make it a habit and let my children see this “good habit” rather than all of my bad habits.
There…I told you. Now you have to hold me accountable. :)