My kids are wearing me out. Little Brother, who I thought would be my laid-back, peaceful one, is exhibiting symptoms of “activitiss” just like his Big Brother! I am EXHAUSTED keeping up with these two!
When nap time rolls around, I don’t want to do laundry or empty the dishwasher, I just want to relax and do something I enjoy (which is normally updating this blog, oddly enough). Unfortunately, this pattern has left our house in a disheveled mess. And I’m hosting a baby shower at my house tomorrow…Eek!
While I’m cutting out letters and stars for decorations for the baby shower, I have been reflecting on the reason I am so tired (and no, I’m not pregnant…my mom already asked me that question). :) I’m certain the reason is that I am not giving all of “cares” to the Lord. I’m not trusting that He will provide me the energy I need to make it to the next hour. I’m relying on my self instead, which means I get tired and stressed VERY easily. I’m not ASKING him to help me in my daily routine.
I guess in my mind, I think He’s too big for my little inconveniences. There are so many people who are hurting so badly, who have REAL problems and hurts. I am just stressed and tired with my kids…that’s not a big deal at all.
But in this thinking, I am denying God’s transforming power in my life. I’m denying his omnipotency altogether.
So, Lord…please give me the strength and energy to care for these two precious babies. To nurture their little spirits and help them to love you more each day. Help me not to get overwhelmed or stressed, but be able to enjoy every little moment….because they pass way too quickly. Amen.